Friday, March 12, 2010

Time Passes

Sometime, not too long ago I headed back to California to visit friends and to see if the fork in the road had been different what my life would be like. Of course, this is sheer nonsense, but sometimes, you indulge fantasies. I dragged old disco-day friends to one of my favorite spots in the planet (if you haven’t gathered by now I have a few): Point Reyes, just north of San Francisco. What is incredible is that it looks the same but all of us don’t. Somehow, this is the magic of geologic time. Twenty five years pass and it all looks better; meanwhile, the visitors…well let’s just say we have earned our stripes.

I guess, I have started thinking that it is almost a year since I started writing this blog. I don’t know if I have accomplished anything other than further indulging fantasies, but of course there are great hopes to impart wisdom, humor or something in between in a task such as this. Over three thousand people have managed to discover the site; a few have seen fit to follow it. But to put it into context, and that is always a good thing in life, over 75,000-100,000 hits will appear on any mediocre porno site in a day! So maybe we should not kid ourselves about reaching the world with a meaningful message.

I will tell you that this year has been extraordinary for me. I have been able to think, speculate, lay out new plans and thoroughly enjoy an aspect of living that I have missed for a long time. I have been searching for a way to re-integrate myself into a workforce that may not really want a 58 year old man. Still, I persist and feel quite capable of surmounting even the most daunting obstacles because I have faith in myself.

I am not a religious person and in fact I am an atheist, but I believe in my fellow man and his ability to be great. Recently, I did what I never thought possible; I joined a group of people that I consider to be exceptional for their beliefs and tolerance. I have joined the Unitarian Universalist Community. Others would refer to it as a Church, but I don’t. I don’t like the word and will not associate one with another and they know it. I am not as alone as I thought I was. There are others just as independent and free thinking as myself.

Why, am I telling all of this? I don’t know. Time passes. One day you think the snow that has been accumulating for months will remain forever and then it melts. One year follows another so easily and you forget how they are strung together. Not that long ago you were a kid escaping and authoritarian regime, the next moment you are dancing feverishly in a disco while your heart is pumping to the amyl you inhaled, the next moment you are contemplating it all on a blog… So, almost Happy Anniversary to myself.

It has been a wonderful year and the garden has certainly kept my spirits afloat in times that might have been less than supportive. I hope that I have imparted some bits of wisdom and garden knowledge. I have enjoyed writing on a lot of subjects and garden practices and keep discovering new ones to tempt me.

If there is one thing I regret is not having taken this year to raise a wonderful new pooch. I miss my Taxi a lot. I never realized that this transition would last this long…Ha Ha...Another surprise! So I am going down this primrose path again. I am throwing caution to the wind. I am actively seeking to find another Dalmatian. Another recent potential adoption fell by the wayside as the 4 year old pooch was probably crazier than me and bit people. So I decided to forgo that process and find something a little safer. If you are in my neck of the woods (there some around me!) and know of someone wanting to find a home for a Dalmatian please let me know. I can assure you it will be loved.

3 comments:

  1. This turned out really well. Happy Almost Anniversary!

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  2. Congratulations and thanks for your blog

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  3. grammalouie16 March, 2010

    Hi Rene,

    Liked this thoughtful blog entry. You know I am completely supportive of your want/need to adopt a dog. Soon I feel it will happen.

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